7.23.2005

Better....

.....I have a better state of mind now. I think Thursdays are just so hard because I am so tired and just plain worn out.

I have some weird swelling situation going on in my leg right now, but I had an uldresound done at the hospital and there is no clot, and my oncology office put me on antibiotics, so if there is an infection, then it should be getting better. I think it is a bruise that just isn't getting better and is getting more swollen from my blood counts being low, but I am no doctor. I will see the doc on Tuesday(as we all know by now), so I should get it figured out then.

I don't really have much to say, so I am going to defer to you all. I am going to make it so that my blog will accept comments. If you have something you want to share, go right ahead. Remember, I have my restaging on Tuesday, so if you could put some positive vibes in there that would be great....but, you are welcome to say whatever you want, please just don't use other peoples names, as they may not want their name on the internet.

What am I thankful for?!?! Friends, family, and other concerned individuals who take the time to read my blog, because they care! (Oh, and A- thanks for the card and for sharing what you are thankful for!! I love to hear that other peole are thinking about things like that too!)

23 comments:

Anonymous said...

i hope you get betr soon. i love you. love skye

Anonymous said...

You (and the three boys) are in our thoughts and prayers.

I am thankful for you and your strength.

Love Ya

Uncle A & Aunt D

Anonymous said...

You will beat this-you will be the miracle! There are just no other options! I send you strength for next weeks testing phase, you are in my thoughts and prayers.
Suzi

Anonymous said...

Hey T!
Your positive attitude and strong will have already kicked the crap out of your tumor, so try not to worry on Tuesday.You are on your way back to good health already.
From your bling-bling sistah down the hall.
J

Anonymous said...

i am thankful for a neice that has so much bravery and strength to attack this thing !!!!! will be sending prayers your way on tuesday

Anonymous said...

Tracy,
I am thankful for so much and one of them is you. Because you have shared so much of yourself so openly, you have probably helped more people in more ways than you realize.

I'll be sending extra positive thoughts your way next week and have been remembering you often, Mac

Anonymous said...

Good luck on Tuesday. I will be thinking and praying for you all day. You are and will continue to be a miracle in my life everyday. Keep that "kick this shit" attitude. You are the type of person I wish I could be.

Love Ya,
One of the Vegas Sisters!!!

Anonymous said...

Hi T.
One of your aunt-in-laws who checks your blog daily and keeps you in her daily prayers. I pray that God gives you the strength to bear this burden. We all love you so, even though we don't get to see you often. Just know we are near and think of you all the time.
I have put you on so many prayer
chains, you can't get anything but better!!!
Aunt P.

Anonymous said...

Tracy,
We are all praying for you. Hope everything goes well on Tuesday. Remember there is nothing you can't handle with help from friends and family.

Stacey

Anonymous said...

Tracy
Good luck on Tues.You are in our thoughts and prayers always (especially at sunrise).Stay positive and when you are not we will be. Love you. K -your old neighbors,that will not be moving:)

Belinda said...

Positive thoughts, positive thoughts, positive thoughts. Sheesh, that isn't that hard because I KNOW you will be fine! And, one of my aunts who went through this very same thing, had thicker hair come in after chemo! There's something to look forward to, haha! And, she's been in remission for three years now, so THERE, stupid cancer. Seriously though. You can totally kick this thing and I have total faith in you and your medical team to help you fight this! Love you lots and am always thinking of you!
Love,
B

Anonymous said...

I love you. I know you are one tough woman. And I believe with all my heart that if anyone can beat this - you can. I send you my strength and my optimism. Thinking of you always.

Vegasdiva1

Anonymous said...

Tracy,

We love you so much! You are one of a kind! We are all here for you, sweetie. Our love and prayers are with you!

Love,
Aunt D and Unklee

Anonymous said...

Tracy,
You have to be one of the toughest ladies that I know. I just wanted to let you know that you are in our thoughts & prayers.
Love,
your cousin Jane

Anonymous said...

Tracy,
You and your boys continue to be in my thoughts & prayers.
You have such an awesome spirit.
Keep looking up...thats where miracles come from!!
~Marlene

Anonymous said...

Tracy,
thanks for allowing comments. Just wanted to let you know I care. Best of luck, you will beat this. Happy thoughts and positive vibes to you. (sing that like happy birthday)
Larae

Anonymous said...

Tracy,
I've been checking in on your blog, and you are continually in my thoughts and prayers. I'll be sending you positive thoughts all day Tuesday!
Your old friend,
Sarah B.

Anonymous said...

I know you're anxious but tomorrow is going to be a good day! You finally get to find out just how badly you've been beating this junk and set up the game plan that will finish it off! Keep up the grit and determination that has guided you thus far and you'll beat this thing!

Sending you all of my strength and support.

- T

Anonymous said...

Tracy
You ARE a "shining star" and your spirit will beat this thing. Sending you all my love and support. Karen

Anonymous said...

We continue to pray for you nightly! Keep the good thoughts and strong attitude!
a cousin

Anonymous said...

You have won!

Redeem your coupon for one thousand free hugs!

The word "miracle" is a coverup for extreme bravery during tough times, an extreme flow of bi-directional love, and never ending determination. In fact, they should change the word from "a miracle" to "a Tracy".

With love and continued prayers!

The "Little Red Wagon Gang"

Anonymous said...

Tracy,

You continue to amaze me with your determination and bravery! Much love and many prayers go with you on Tuesday! You go girl! (Now I know that I can't get away with that in person- but does it work via blog?)

Love,
Nicole

Anonymous said...

Keep the positive spirit. You are such an inspiration. Good luck tomorrow. You are in my thoughts. -pablo