7.26.2005

The NEWS!!!

The news:
My CT scans and the MRI of my spine showed no evidence of tumors. Tumors that were in my liver initially are no longer visible on CT,and there was no evidence of disease in my spine, or any new places, for that matter.
The doctor did a physical exam on my breast and said that he can not feel any residual tumor. He said that all he notices are the changes at the biopsy site.
So....I guess, as of right now, I have no visible evidence of cancer!
I was low on all my blood counts, so I did get to hang out at the hospital til 9pm tonight to get two units of blood and platelets.
The plan:
I will be setting up a mammogram in the next week or so, and then I will go back and see the doctor in two weeks. If the mammogram shows evidence of residual tumor that the doctor was unable to feel on exam, then I will potentially have a lumpectomy to remove the residual tumor. I will also be staying on the herceptin to try to keep the cancer from coming back for as long as humanly possible, which per my doc could be "several years". I will get the herceptin via IV just like the chemo was, but I will only have to get it every three weeks. The side effects are less, w/o the nausea, fatigue and hair loss. My mood should be more consistent, and my hair should be thickening back up. I will be on the herceptin indefinitely, and have several options should my cancer recur. I will be having scans done every three months to check for recurrence and to monitor my heart functioning due to the herceptin use.
I plan to continue with my herbal supplements, will have more energy and better blood counts to kick my exercise up, and will be monitoring my diet closer than ever, because now....the chemo is gone, and it is all up to me and a higher power to keep this stuff at bay.
The emotions:
I am really in an odd place right now, while everyone is very excited (as they should/better be), I have not been able to get all that excited yet. I think I am in shock and quite frankly a little terrified to go off the chemo, because the chemo is what I was placing a huge part of my faith on, and now that is being taken away. Please, be patient with me, I have a lot to process, and this is a big step. Also, I still have some uncertainty going on, as I have not yet had my mammogram, and I do not know if I will be having surgery or not. But believe me, I am VERY thankful for the news I received today, and if I could quit crying, you would be able to see that.
The love:
Thank you for all the love, hugs, prayers, thoughts, vibes....etc!!! They must have worked!!! And PLEASE do not stop on me now, I need you more than ever, because I have a lot of hard work ahead of me now; I have to keep this from coming back!!!
What am I thankful for?!?! Modern medicine! The power of hope and faith! And, did you see the sunset tonight, it looked more beautiful to me tonight than it ever has! Sweet dreams!

16 comments:

Jarvis & Shawna said...

Tracy,

HOORAY!!! Heard the good news from Aunt D.D. and got confirmation from your blog. Way to go, girl! Just goes to show you that prayer and a positive attitude really do work! Keep your head up and stay strong. You've already kicked butt and won! You're positive attitude and energy is an inspiration to us all! You'll be in our thoughts and prayers for a FULL recovery.
Love ya!

Anonymous said...

YOU ROCK Friend! I guess this is some kind of test to find out how strong you are. Wow........you are one strong woman! Livestrong! -p

Anonymous said...

I am so excited to hear the great news. We all knew you were a fighter. Congrats to you and Dan, and the kids. Stay positive and continue to fight...we aren't going anywhere....so let us know when you need some help!!! I am so proud of your drive and determination...you can do whatever you want in this world. I am glad to say you are my friend!!!

Love Ya,
A Vegas Sister

Anonymous said...

Tracy,

I wish I could tell you how thrilled I am for you and your family. Keep up the good work, gal!! I will continue to keep you at the top of my prayer list. You are loved by many.

Belinda said...

Yay!! I'm thankful right now for modern medicine too! This is amazing news and I can understand the range of emotions, but many, many people before you have beaten this thing and many, many people after you will too (hopefully, more and more). Just goes to show you that postive kick-butt attitudes ARE worth everything! If at any point you'd decided to give up, this news maybe wouldn't have been as good! So, I'm also thankful for the power of YOU!!

Love,
Belinda

Belinda said...

Yay!! I'm thankful right now for modern medicine too! This is amazing news and I can understand the range of emotions, but many, many people before you have beaten this thing and many, many people after you will too (hopefully, more and more). Just goes to show you that postive kick-butt attitudes ARE worth everything! If at any point you'd decided to give up, this news maybe wouldn't have been as good! So, I'm also thankful for the power of YOU!!

Love,
Belinda

Anonymous said...

I just can't read anymore because I am so happy I'm crying!!! I love you guys and will continue to hope and pray for the best. Way to go!!!

Tracy

Anonymous said...

Way to go! I always knew that stubborn streak would serve you well! Seriously- I am very happy for you, your hubby, and your two darlings! You keep fighting- we'll keep praying- cause it seems to be working!

Love,
Nicole

Anonymous said...

Tracy-
"Thank God for modern medicine" is correct.
Prayer is powerful as well.
Love, Pat

Anonymous said...

Tracy,

congrats to you, Dan and the kids on this great news. Thank God for the power of prayer and the love of family and friends, I knew you could make it through this. Stay strong and positive

Love,
Shawn

Anonymous said...

But as for me, I would seek God, And I would place my cause before God; Who does great and unsearchable things, Wonders without number. He gives rain on the earth, And sends water on the fields. Job 5:8-10

Tracy,
I truly felt that when it rained yesterday, things were going to be positive for you. God is good all the time!! Sometimes we just don't see it. Keep the faith, you're amazing!
~Marlene

Anonymous said...

Words cannot express how I feel. But I knew it in my heart. It's not over but it's a damn good start. The rain yesterday was a sign.........just as it was on your wedding day.

Vegasdiva1

Anonymous said...

Your family deserves this good news! Hog that feeling and you've earned the right to be a little selfish!!!

"The Little Red Wagon Gang"

Anonymous said...

Great News!!!!!! We have been thinking and praying for you. It is great to hear that things are headed in the right direction. Keep up the fight!!!!

Adam and Jacki

Sheri said...

Congrats chica!! I'm so glad to see that you got some very positive news. That is all so amazing. Change is always scary, even positive change like this, but once it soaks in you'll be happier. Just give it time. :) You made it over one HUGE hurdle, now it's time to enjoy your victory!

Sheri

Anonymous said...

tracy,

to you.danny, and the kids I send a huge hug of congats for the wondeful news. I am so proud of the way all of you have handled things. Prayers will still be with you as you continue to BEAT THIS THING!!!!!!!

love,
annette