Monday I went to radiation and ended up in the hospital. I needed an mri of my spine due to weakness and numbness in my hands and leg. I am unable to walk on my own right now. I have some troubling lesions on the spinal cord of my cervical spine, so I started radiation on those as well. I also had nausea, vomiting, and dizziness that has been relieved with an increase in my steroids, and an inability to urinate requiring a catheter. I will be at the hopital until they get a couple more doses of radiation into me, and then maybe an assisted living facility for some rehab before home because I do not have an accessible home. Too many steroids and I might just bust out of here, incredible hulk style!!!
They sent someone in yesterday to talk to me and my family about end of life issues, wills, etc. That was hard on all.
We reestablished that I am NOT giving up yet. I am tired, yes, but I just need a little rest before I kick back in.
I acknowledged that, yes, I will die from this, bit I am going yo die fighting. This is not the time to go home and go quietly.
What am I thankful for? My great support group.
ATTITUDE is everything! *Tracy