1.12.2011

Hospital

Monday I went to radiation and ended up in the hospital. I needed an mri of my spine due to weakness and numbness in my hands and leg. I am unable to walk on my own right now. I have some troubling lesions on the spinal cord of my cervical spine, so I started radiation on those as well. I also had nausea, vomiting, and dizziness that has been relieved with an increase in my steroids, and an inability to urinate requiring a catheter. I will be at the hopital until they get a couple more doses of radiation into me, and then maybe an assisted living facility for some rehab before home because I do not have an accessible home. Too many steroids and I might just bust out of here, incredible hulk style!!!
They sent someone in yesterday to talk to me and my family about end of life issues, wills, etc. That was hard on all.
We reestablished that I am NOT giving up yet. I am tired, yes, but I just need a little rest before I kick back in.
I acknowledged that, yes, I will die from this, bit I am going yo die fighting. This is not the time to go home and go quietly.
What am I thankful for? My great support group.

ATTITUDE is everything!  *Tracy

31 comments:

Anonymous said...

:(...praying for you!! Hang in there dear!!! We are all fighting with you.
Love ya!
Bridget

Kristin said...

Thinking of you Tracy! Prayers are continually flowing your way. Hope they take good care of you while you are there. Get some good R & R!

Kristin

Anonymous said...

You are inspirational beyond words. Prayers to you and your family.

Crissy Anson said...

Praying for you and your family!! I agree you are an Inspiration to everyone.

Anonymous said...

Big Hugs and Love Girlfriend! Dooley

tweety2549 said...

Praying and thinking of you. You need to get better and out of the hospital so I can teach you how to make that Hamburger Gravy.

Anonymous said...

I'd love to see the Incredible Hulk style, Tracy! Ha!! You are constantly on my mind and in my heart...forever!!! Prayers are with you!! Love you girl!!!
~Nicki

Anonymous said...

You definitely are a fighter beyond words...keep kicking butt!!!! love ya RH & JH

Jane said...

Tracy, Thinking and praying for you.

Anonymous said...

Tracy,
You are in our thoughts and prayers constantly!!

Love you lots!
Ron, Stacey, Cody and Casey

Anonymous said...

What an amazing warrior you are...an inspiration to us all. My thoughts and prayers are with you to kick back in soon. Keep fighting! MS.

DP said...
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DP said...

There are lots of us out here thinking of you. Praying for you. God bless you.

What I am thankful for?

That your boys have you for a mom!

katmeter12@yahoo.com said...

You are in our thoughts and prayers girlie! God Bless your awesome attitude and amazing fight!
Keep it up HULK!

Tracy said...

Tracy,
I came to find your blog via a facebook friend, and I have to tell you that you are one amazing chica! I admire your journey and everything about you, your wonderful family, support group (friends, etc), and your willingness to share your life with the world.

Your line that says, "I acknowledged that, yes, I will die from this, bit I am going yo die fighting. This is not the time to go home and go quietly." speaks volumes to me; my mother passed away from brain cancer (primary) at age 48 in 2009 and had the same attitude that you have. No illness or cancer or anything was going to keep her from fighting. This month marks the two year anniversary of her death and though I miss her and my heart aches everyday, her fight is still with me, as yours will remain with your boys and family now and for the rest of their lives. Please know that no matter what road God leads you down, your heart will remain with your family. My mother's has and will always.

Praying for you.
(another) Tracy

Anonymous said...

Tracy, I've followed your fight through my sister Erin over the years. Please know, that although its been a very long time since we've spoke. Myself and my family have kept you in our prayers - and will continue to do so. My best to you and yours ...
Noel (former Stephens)

Patti said...

Rest and relax, darling girl, and get ready to dance again! Love ya! Purple Patti

Anje Sulio -Guam, USA said...

HI Tracy,
Thinking of you all the way out here in Guam, and I know God is listening to our prayers. May you have peace in your heart as you get through this. I am fighting right alongside you. Much love.

Anje -HOH 2010
Guam, USA

Anonymous said...

You have a warrior's vision and strength Tracy. Love, hugs and prayers without pause.

Terri Brown

Anonymous said...

Tracy -- without question you inspire so many people regardless if they are battling cancer, anything, or nothing. KEEP FIGHTING BACK - Hulk, Super Woman, or anyone, but FIGHT Back!
---Eric---

Lori Rupp said...

Tracy- I am a fellow HOH from your class and I am thinking and praying all the positive thoughts possible for a cure and you and your family. Your blog is amazing and one day your boys will love it. DO NOT GIVE UP- Keep fighting, you are an amazing survivor! Lots of love sent your way- make the nurses treat you right! Lori Rupp

The Preister's said...

Tracy, you are the definition of HOPE and HERO!!
H Help People
E Empower Others
R Raise Awareness
O Offer HOPE

Pat Becker said...

You are such an amazing women. I opened up the Daffodil Days brochure last night and there you were with your shining smile.When your kids grow up, they too, will have your strength, ability to love and to see goodness in everyone. You are more than a role model to them but to everyone who knows you. You are so loved. I think about you daily and have you in my constant prayers. Love, Pat Becker

Double Bagger Mike said...

Thinking of & Praying for you much!!! Keep Fighting like the Fighter we know you are, and know there are many here for you to help when and where we can!!!!!

Randy Seevers said...

Hey cousin Tracy - I'm proud to say that some of your Lingwall blood runs through my veins.

You are fighting just as you were raised to fight - and I'm proud of you. Continue to lean on all that love you....of which there are MANY.

Anonymous said...

You are a superhero Tracy!! You inspire me and I have never met you personally. I followed your blog after running a 5k dedicated to Cancer. Your boys are so lucky to have you as their mom! Fight like the warrier you are!

Anonymous said...

Tracy-
While I personally have never met you, I have been following your blog after the 5K at Pioneers Park last summer. You truly are an inspiration to so many. You are an amazing woman & your attitude alone teaches so much! Your boys are so lucky to have you as their mother! Continue fighting, be proud of who you are & know many thoughts & prayers go out to you & your family!

Anonymous said...

I now understand why you choose "Perservence" for your Relay for Life team. It's truely how you lived your life since cancer stepped in. You are in our prayers. Kathy

Sheri said...

You're one heck of a woman, Tracy. Always have been. If anyone can Hulk out, it'll be you. :)

Bridget Boyd Eggold said...

Tracy,
I continue to pray daily for your strength to return, and for the doctors and medications to be instruments of God. Praying also for those who stand close to you as they uplift and protect you!

Bailey :) said...

:( i rly miss you tracy!!!! im rly good friends wif ur son Skye. Whenevr i think bout having her bak on earth, i think bout how much pain she was in. And all tht matters is tht she is better nw. I LOVE AND MISS YOU TRACY HARNLY!!!!!!!