1.05.2011

Scan results...

...I told the boys tonight, so I feel better about posting this now-

I would have to say that the scan results were like a kick in the diaphram. I lost my breath a little, okay a lot. The scans showed that I have several new bone lesions (spine, ribs, scapula, humerous, skull...) and now have not the 10, but now approx. 20 liver lesions. BAD NEWS! The doc suggested a MUGA scan to test my heart functioning before starting a new chemo. He has one in mind, but is also going to look into clinical trials. I also told him about the headache that never goes away and the left hand tremor, thinking a brain mri might be good too, so I had that done on tuesday. The results came on wednesday, and I have several brain lesions scattered throughout...the worst news to-date, and I have to admit that as soon as I got off the phone with the doctor I called Dan who had to keep me from hyperventilating. My parents both came to stay with me that evening...we did dinner and a movie, and mom spent the night. I will meet with the radiation oncologist tomorrow morning and we will hopefully get started ASAP on WBR (whole brain radiation). After that is finished, then we can begin chemo ...again.

The boys took the news like troopers. There were some tears shead, of course, but I stayed strong and hopefully that gives them hope that we can fight this longer. I told them that I am tough and will do everything I can to win this battle.

Thankful for?!?! I am thankful for all the prayers that are going up by so many people. I am thankful for the people in our lives that will help the kids, Dan, my sister and parents, and I through this difficult time. I am thankful for Gods love, and I will be thankful for that miracle when he sendings it. =) PLEASE HUG YOUR FAMILY!!! Hope and Love!

16 comments:

Anonymous said...

Love you Tracy-Praying with all my might.
Suzanne

Anonymous said...

Hope is that thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops... at all. ~Emily Dickinson

Anonymous said...

Hugs, love and prayers for you and your family!!

Anonymous said...

You are one of the toughest, strongest people I've had the privelage to call friend. not only have you managed to do more in five years than many do in their lifetime, you also continue to give your children memories and that is what makes you a for reals superhero! Love you and I'm thankful that you have a wonderful support system, Belinda

Anonymous said...

Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.
Joshua 1:9

We will pray harder and fight harder for the cure.
I love you Tracy! You are my hero!
Nicki

Lonicera said...

Tracy - I've been following your blog on an almost daily basis for a long time and like everybody else, find it intensely moving and inspiring. Your sons are brave beyond words, and I have learned from you to ask myself at the end of the day what I am grateful for. One of the replies writes itself: we are all grateful for people like you who teach us the meaning of life.
With many hugs and best wishes from England.
Caroline

Anonymous said...

I LOVE YOU SISSY!!!! ANYTHING...ANYTIME!!

Jane said...

Thinking and praying for you. Love you Tracy.

Anonymous said...

Robb and I will do anything for you, Dan or the boys at any time so just call. We pray for you all daily. Hugs and hope are coming your way from us. Love you!

Marg

Anonymous said...

F*@%
I'm so sorry you have to fight this everyday.
I abhor the thing that brings so much pain and suffering.
I know I should say stay strong, stay hopeful and I do think that, but I'm mostly angry and sad and just want to say F off Cancer.

Anonymous said...

You are a brave, strong woman. Prayers continue to come your way.

Anonymous said...

Tracy, you are one of the most special people in my life! I love you and your boys! I will do anything for you! FIGHT, and we will fight for you too! XOXOXO
Kimberly Buchmeier

Anonymous said...

I am hugging my family and hope you can feel all the virtual hugs being sent to you today. All the healing energy which comes with those hugs just has to make a difference eventually. You are so amazing and so strong. I'm just damn sorry you are having to spend so much of your life battling this disease. Love & hugs, Mo

Anonymous said...

Jeff and I are sorry to hear the overwhelming news. Our prayers are with you, the boys, and your family. Stay strong. Kathy

Kristin said...

Tracy,
I have been following your blog for quite some time but have never posted a message to you. I feel like I know you as I used to work with your mom at Tenneco and she talked about you often. Tracy, I just have to tell you that you are one of the most amazing women I have ever known. You have amazing strength in so many different ways. You truly are an inspiration. You have the will to beat this and from all of the posts I see here and on FB you have a fabulous group of followers lifting you up in prayer. I pray that you continue to feel the support and love from everyone that cares about you. I believe that you have touched many many people…you are amazing.

Kristin Burt

Anonymous said...

Tracy,

You are forever in my heart and what I am thankful for is YOU and as much as I hate cancer and hate what cancer is doing to your body...I'm thankful that cancer allowed me to meet you and I'm thankful that cancer will NEVER touch your soul. You are in my prayers and always in my thoughts.
Keep fighting and keep loving. Take care and God bless

Sheila B - HOHOHO07